08 December 2010

Endings Bring New Beginnings

I jinxed myself, and by myself I mean my pets. Only two days ago I wrote a post about how I got my pet chickens and this afternoon I found out my rooster died in the night. RIP Aquaman, you will be missed you glorious rooster.
Aquaman was always a bold man, staring right at you.
It's got me thinking about death just a little bit and how lost I am when it comes to it. I haven't had anyone close to me ever pass. The last person in my family that I knew passed when I was only seven. I didn't even see my great-nana all that much so seeing her in the hospital and then in the casket was so odd to me. I've been to one funeral since, my ex's father. His father I only knew for about a year, so yeah I was fairly comfortable with him, I still wasn't all that close.

Death is really just a mystery to me. I don't know what to expect or even how to begin to handle it. The people simply disappear from my life and I either cry or don't, miss them or not. I expect the same of my death. Some people to cry, miss me, but most move on without much thought. I won't even force them to look at my body, I plan to be cremated. And none of that "urn on the mantle" shit, just throw it away or something. It's just weird to display someone's ashes in a formal manner. Never got that.

On a side note, today was Delia's first car ride since bringing her home. She was not a fan at all of the trip. She freaked out and hid beneath the seat for most the ride. I brought her to the vet to get her used to the doctors and office before having to go to an appointment. Next month my pretty kitty should have all her shots and spayed. Miss Delia had loads of treats on the ride and that was probably the only part she enjoyed. XD
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katelynfraser said...

Aww, poor Aquaman. RIP ):
Do you know what caused him to pass away?
How is the other one doing?

And I've been quite surrounded by death my whole life, so I kind of have a different view on it than you. I'm actually glad to have been surrounded by it, because now I'm used to it, and it doesn't seem as bad to me.
I had actually just been talking about this a few days ago with my friend, after my Grade 10 English teacher's wife passed away.
If I hadn't been surrounded by it my whole life, when someone close to me passed away, I'd honestly have no idea how to act. I've lost people both close and not so close to me. I just kind of let my emotions take me where ever they want to go, because I know I'll eventually accept it and be able to move on.

Jess said...

We have no idea what caused him to die. As far as we know Captain Planet seems to be doing fine. I just hope she stays that way.

Biohazard said...

Awww, I'm sorry. :(
You should look into Button Quail. You could even breed them, and make a little money selling the chicks.

Jess said...

Haha, I think I'm done with outdoor birds. I'll stick with my kitten for now. =]